I am seated on my bed, with the Tshirt that I had on yesterday, still on my body.(Talk of poor hygiene😂😂)The weather is humid and I am all sweaty. I really need to take a shower, I think to myself. I had exams early in the morning, so I really didn’t shower before leaving(Again, poor hygiene😂😂).
Anyway, I am back from my exams, my friend Dorcas who is also passing as my roommate this month, is sleeping on the bed next to me, my other roommate, Charlynne, has gone to the library to study for tomorrow’s exams.
I’ll join her soon, I think, as soon as I get out of bed and go take a shower.
Did I mention that my current room is infested with ‘wadudu’ so I am staring at a cockroach going up the wall, jealous of it really, the cockroach has more motivation than me currently. Whilst the cockroach is busy looking for non existent food in this room, I am on my bed hoping for just a little ounce of energy, to get up and go shower.
But that is not happening, you know why?!
I can’t get you out of my mind!!
You probably think that I should stop thinking about you, right?
Trust me, I wish I could! I wish I could stop thinking about you and focus on preparing for my programming exam that is tomorrow, or even the Computer Architecture one, you know?
Oh boy!! I have tried forcing you out of my mind for a week now.
Do you know what I just did, I ‘googled'(a classmate of mine once said kookled😂😂) your sign to check if the stars deem us compatible! That’s how desperate I am becoming. Fun fact, Sagittarius men aren’t compatible with Gemini women(girls😂😂). But we could be the exception, right?
I want you out of my mind!
I want to stop seeing your face every time I close my eyes.
I want to stop thinking about you every time I write about my male protagonist in ‘In The Name Of Love.’
I want to stop craving your hugs, like a lovestruck teenager(touché😂).
I want to stop thinking of how your lips are so sexy.
Oh what I would do to have you in between my legs!
I want you out of mind but I want you so bad…I am running mad!
Its not like there aren’t any other guys.
There is the fifth year guy, but he is too annoying. And there is this way that he drags his words when talking, that should be seen as cool, but it just pisses me off! And honestly, I feel like he is too old for me. For anyone really.
Oh and this other guy, who can never pronounce my name right! He hasn’t shown any interest in me😂😂but a girl can assume. I’ve seen the way he looks at me. And I am pretty sure that he intentionally pronounces my name wrong, or he has no pronunciation skills, which might be a problem in the future! Imagine dating a guy, whose pronunciation is off, let’s just hope that the reading aloud skills are not at Grade Two Level.
So far, I have one who drags his words and one who might or might not be with the Grade Two level of pronunciation.
The former is just slightly taller than me, meaning that, wearing heeled shoes might be a problem in the future.
Are you seeing where I am going with this?
Before I forget, there is the funny one, but that is a story for another day.
I probably have boyfriend fever.
Scratch that, I definitely have boyfriend fever! With everyone getting boo’d up and all the romance books that I’ve been reading, I am pretty sure that the fever is inevitable.
Boyfriend fever, in definition, is when you want a boyfriend really bad and would do anything to have one.
I am too lazy to actually do anything about it, except wish you were beside me! Or on top of me really.
And just like any other fever, it is treatable, I can do what is called breaking the fever!
The first step to breaking any fever is always taking your temperature and assessing the symptoms; this is probably seeing how badly I want a boyfriend and the extent that I am willing to go.
The next step is staying in bed and resting; this is when I meditate and try then fail at doing the whole self care process.
There is staying hydrated then taking the medication, to break the fever; which works with all fevers.
But, here’s what I know, the worst moment to date or even consider dating is when you have boyfriend fever. Ever heard of settling? That’s what happens! And if I haven’t mentioned this before, my worst fear is settling!
I haven’t told any of my friends about you. I can’t even say your name out loud anymore, because I am afraid someone might catch the tone and notice that I like you!
Maybe it is the boyfriend fever, but you are just perfect for me! And the worst part is, I think you give me the butterflies I keep reading about!
You know the way we are always being told to think with our brains and not hearts?
Maybe ours would have been one of those epic love stories people write novels about.
But here’s the problem; Brain not heart!
I want you so badly, I have to let you go. I never had you.
I need to stop thinking about you and go back to staring at the cockroaches on my wall.
Brain not heart!
I want you so badly… I am running mad!